2 months ago I was sitting in traffic trying to figure out WHY I was so tired and cranky. The answer?
2 private practices
2 board positions
I was recently sharing my tale of “whoa” to a former housemate who replied, “Sounds like you need to be 2 people.”
And it’s true, I can’t be 2 people.
One of my favorite things to say when community building (which is always) is “One person can not run around and a community be.” And apparently this is also true for a single mom with 2 of everything (except herself).
Back to the basics.
The first step in finding balance, is to understand our limits and boundaries.
Limits are not a bad thing.
Limits signify the outer edges of our capabilities.
Whether it is our ability to tolerate abuse, bullshit or achievement, limits provide a container that helps us to maintain a sense of integrity. (And by integrity, I mean the hull of a ship) Integrity speaks to the perceived continuity of self and if we can carry ourselves throughout a variety of circumstances in a consistent way, we have a more solid base to work from.
And when we bump up against our limits, we hit that moment of resistance.
I was joking during last weeks Work101 meeting that Sheila couldn’t have any resistance because all of it had come to stay with me for a bit.
But, I have maligned resistance. It is not squatting with me. I am just too darn busy to get anything done. In fact I am too busy to even deal with resistance and this may be the point of it all- My resistance to deal with my resistance? …What?… Wait…
You know what? Fuck it.
At some point we have to accept that it doesn’t matter why things are as they are… if they are out of balance, we just have to fix it… and my experience is, that through this process, we will have a better understanding of why.
Let’s see…so that means I now have:
2 private practices
1 board position
2 (almost) free days to work.
SO I guess this means I only have to be 1½ people…
*snark* I can do that…
In my sleep.